Was zoning out in my house as my housemate watches “The 100.” It’s a science fiction show that aired on Fox back in the mid 2010s, it’s aiight. Probly not something I would watch if I had the choice. There are so many scenes where I wish it were a lot more mundane actually, survivors coming together on a planet that has not seen them for a century? It could be really cute and romantic actually, I don’t see why dystopian futuristic has to be so dour. But anyway, as my mind wandered, I imagined a character without a verbal filter. You know, someone who sees a freshly injured burn victim whose face may be half melted and says something like, “Ew, gross. What’s wrong with your face?” Even thinking about it right now makes me chuckle a bit, like, wow this is literally part of your character, and it’s aweful but maybe that’s just my sense of dark humor. I’ve heard from several sources that people who are able to move through overwhelming tragedy often subsist on gallows humor, laughing at things that should would normally have an aura of the taboo. A mother of a developmentally disabled adult child often quipped about how her life would be so much more luxurious without having to manage her sometimes physically violent son, i.e. he could kick the bucket one day and her life would become, in a way, exponentially less stressful, and likely more fun. It’s not like she’s actively wishing for something like that to happen, but speaking it into words is just funny to me. It’s like saying an abusive parent would make everyone’s lives better by just dying, and having it be a line of dialogue in a comedic film would be funny.

After just getting back from Oklahoma, I feel like its just a feeling of mine.